Right well, here I am on the Thursday of Week 6. I had my Week 5 weigh-in on Monday night where I had lost 4lb (Total loss in five weeks = 2st 2lb) which was my lowest weekly loss yet, but still nothing to turn my nose up at. I just hope I average at least that for the following three weeks to hit my 3st in the eight weeks of the ‘Foundation’ stage.
That’s the facts and figures out of the way. I’ve found this past weekend and the last few days incredibly hard. I’ve been sniffing food in the fridge, staring at pizza menus and generally pining for food. Again, this isn’t through hunger, but desire so it’s a tough thing to control. However, I have come out on top and have still managed to abstain from conventional food for 38 days. I’m quite proud of that fact. I felt like I could’ve lapsed in the past few days but the nearest I got was sniffing at some wafer-thin chicken I found in the fridge. I think the amount of strength shown in not just sticking it in my mouth has actually shocked me a little bit!
The ‘counselling’ I receive at my LighterLife meetings has dropped off again, with my meetings mostly consisting of my LLC asking us how the week has been and how we’ve coped. There are one or two guys there that have a tendancy to talk about food quite a lot and for some reason that is quite painful. Strange that I can sit around and watch others eat, go food shopping and watch Britain’s Best Menu (something like that?) but when another fat bloke mentions kebabs with burger sauce I start to salivate?? The mind is a curious thing…
I’m a bit gutted that the advertised Cognitive Behavioral Therapy seems to be lacking and it seems men get the raw deal. Women get the full two hours in-depth workgroup whereas the Men’s group (with my LLC at least) rarely lasts more than an hour and is mostly taken up with weighing and paying. I think it’s a combination of the meeting being quite late at night (Men don’t start until 9pm) and by time any form of counseling could happen it’s pushing 10pm and people just want to go. Bit of a bummer, I’m hoping it doesn’t affect my management when I’m back on food.
I’ve had a hectic time last weekend, the arrival of a new 8-week old puppy, a Chihuahua cross called Mabel, has dominated every waking hour, and some non-waking hours too. She’s lovely, but a handful. Must be like having a baby, but with sharper teeth. Oh, plus baby’s have nappies and don’t lay cables straight on the floor…
As well as that, on Sunday, I picked up a 150Kg arcade machine for my games room, which is not only upstairs but the machine was also too deep to get around the bottom of my staircase. This means it took four hours and a lot of heaving and wall-gouging with two mates to accomplish the feat. However, we did it, but I don’t think I’ve ever felt so lightheaded and dizzy, prompted spent the rest of the day drinking water to try and get back on track!
I’ll leave it there for now – I will just add that on Monday just gone, I was given my front and side profile photographs from my first session before starting the programme. The difference is dramatic even at the end of week five. I’ll be uploading them hopefully in time for my next blog update.
Thanks for reading
S
Hi Baby,
Just wanted to say how proud I am to have you as my boyfriend. You have shown so much determination and commitment over the past 5 weeks with this weight loss plan and you are looking amazing.
I loved and admired you loads before the weight loss, but every day, I love you a little bit more and am so happy that I can now fit my arms fully around you for a good huggle!!!
Keep up the hard and good work – oh and smelling my food as I know that keeps you focussed, even if my family think I am mean!
Love you always and forever, Claire x x x